Ajijic Called Me
I am sitting on my sofa in my home in Mexico. It’s quiet here, I have a beautiful garden with so much abundance of fruits and flowers.
I've lived here almost 6 years in October. I've come a long way, I can tell you that. The town of Ajijic called me to do some deep healing.I’ve dropped a lot of emotional baggage and I have navigated the deepest and darkest sides of myself here.
For a few years one question haunted me asking myself this; did I run away?
I guess if you are witnessing from the outside and only judging it from what it looks like,you could say I did. But after spending these years with myself and being able to observe the whole story,I have come to feel so much understanding for my own process.
The whole point of telling you a bit of my story here is to share with you that many times in our lives we are going to make moves that so many people don't understand.Not even ourselves.
Many times in our lives we will make choices that might even hurt the ones we love the most, knowing that all you can offer them at that moment is understanding and acknowledgment for what they are feeling at the time. That’s it.
When I left the United States I had a plan…. Right, the Universe laughed at those plans!! After 9 days of being on the road , I made a stop in the city of Guadalajara and that evening I got an invitation to come to the town of Ajijic for the weekend to rest and visit the place. Without knowing it will be my next home for a while, I accepted the invite.
Full of retired expats and no ocean or body of water to be able to swim in wasn't my ideal place to be, honestly.But there was something special about this place, I thought to myself.
If you want to know the whole story, you're going to have to read my book!! So for now I'll tell you this; at almost two years mark of being here,I began to shift into another rhythm of life and noticed how my body was actually fighting it because all it knew was how to constantly be on the hamster wheel spinning out of control.
I knew that my body and soul had some healing to do, but I didn't know what that looked like and I certainly didn't expect the universe to send me here to work this deep.
Fast forward almost six years and I can see some important things that I feel are important to share with you, because at some point we all face similar experiences and when we can relate to another human being, we may feel that we are not walking this journey alone.
I didn't run away, it was just the only way I knew then how to cope with the deep pain I was feeling when I lost my family.
My plans were based on the trauma I was experiencing, not by tapping into my highest Self.
Although I was making trauma based decisions, the universe showed me that he had different plans for me, and I was willing to listen to them. It helped that I was desperate too, lol.
I couldn't see the big plan then, because I needed to walk this journey and heal myself before being able to see anything differently.
Sometimes we are going to choose things that upset and disappoint others and that are very hard to understand. But if you are acting from a place of listening to your soul, I promise you that everything will find harmony.
Spending time alone or how I’ve come to see it, is one of the most rewarding experiences I could give to myself. In time I've become a being who is able to listen to my inner wisdom, that voice that was always there and yet it was covered by all of my self doubt.
I have learned to trust life, and trust comes from KNOWING that I am the artist and creator of my own life. I am crafting my life with every decision that I make, and for once that feels actually empowering.
I was sent here to dive deep into my shadow. The elders of this town say that we are called to this place to heal and to release grief, and that I have done plenty for the last 6 years.
I have found a new kind of ‘home’ here. A home that lives within me and that I would take with me everywhere I go. I have found my voice here, the voice that hid behind self doubt for so many years. Ajijic will give you the opportunity of rebirth, you just have to take it. It's only up to you.
I look forward to meeting you here and together experiencing the many gifts this place has to offer.